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Jan. 28th, 2025 04:36 pm
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The night Sam Kirk walks into the Kirk family farmhouse his little brother throws a fucking beer bottle at his face. He misses. If he'd hit, the next several years might not have happened.



Jim is twenty years old and his life is a fucking mess.

He's no longer in the goddamn hospital every other month, but still in mandatory therapy until he ages out of the system on his 21st birthday. His therapist has worked with him since. Well. Since he got mandated one by the University of Iowa's children's hospital when they brought him home and nursed him back from the brink of being starved to death. Sam isn't here about Tarsus though. He's here because he heard little Jimmy just got out of a stint in county for petty theft.

Why's a guy stealing bread in this day and age? Jim doesn't give him a satisfactory answer. He can't. There isn't one. He'd been better until he'd left his personal device at home for a weekend boke trip. Without his meal schedule Jim can't function. But see, his body doesn't tell him when he's hungry anymore either, so Jim hadn't noticed until it was day three and he started hurting. All sense left him. Next thing he knows he's sitting in a jail cell being watched while he eats the food they gave him because anyone can see Jim Kirk is still too thin. Jim hates it. That look of fucking pity.

He was home and on his fourth beer of the evening when his fucking older brother strides in like he hasn't been gone for the last damn near decade of Jim's life.

"Sober up. I want you to come into town with me tomorrow and take a test." Sam had said. Jim thinks he told his brother to fuck off. He thinks he tried, but he might have stormed off so the other didn't see him break down into tears. He dodges Sam for three days before they bond over noon breakfast talking about when their mom finally found out about and ditched Frank. Sam asks where Winona sent him then, since neither of them believes for a second she stayed Earthside to raise him herself.

Jim lies.

But the lie works. And so he lets Sam drive them into town chattering the whole time about Starfleet. He wants Jim to take an aptitude test. If he passes, well. Dear ol' big brother's gonna whisk him away to San Francisco so they can enlist together. Sam got in, you see. Second attempt, so maybe Jimmy won't be going with him Right away.

"Jim." Jim corrects him. He's toying with the idea of maybe letting Sam talk him into this, but he's not forgetting the last damn near decade so easily. Not forgiving it yet, either. He tells himself he'll take the stupid test to shut his brother up. And hell, maybe he'll even beat his 'big bro' and pass on a first try. He aces it, hangover and all. Sam seems real keen on congratulating himself for giving Jim pointers the last couple days and Jim doesn't argue much.

A change of scenery seems like a decent idea.

All he wants to take fits into a single duffel bag he tosses into the back of Sam's beater of a truck and they make for San Francisco...

Date: 2025-02-06 01:37 am (UTC)
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Spock meets Jim's step closer with one of his own, leaving them practically toe to toe as he watches his face, searching his expression while he listens to what he has to say.

"I was not aware. When I had arrived on Earth it was just after—"

When Jim kisses him, Spock presses into it eagerly, open and hungry and wanting. The catch of Jim's blunted teeth manages to steal a quiet, wanting sound out of him, and then he breathes quietly, taking everything in. "I was not prepared for the depth of emotion I began to feel for you, and as the dissolution of my engagement was mere weeks before the start of term, I did not see myself as desirable."

Spock initiates another kiss, lingering, his free hand dropping to Jim's hip.

"I was unable to ascertain how someone as attractive, intelligent, and kind as you could be attracted to me."

Date: 2025-02-06 03:22 am (UTC)
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"I do not understand the metaphor 'sex on legs.'" Spock is aware his curiosity is not helping anything, but he has to make that part known first.

After, when Jim is breathing words between them, Spock swallows. Normally he might have several questions, but he is able to glean meaning well enough from context that he simply inhales a little sharply and blinks both sets of eyelids before looking at him, hand lifting to close atop Jim's in his shirt.

He nudges their foreheads together gently; there is transference but it is steady and grounding. This is the most Spock has touched anyone other than regular contact with his mother as a child, and well, with T'Pring while they were still betrothed.

"We have established that we both have long-term affection and desire for one another," he begins reasonably, "and should you desire to wait, I will not push you. I have lived with you in this room for months with you almost entirely undressed at all times and have, as I have heard it colloquially put, 'survived.' I will not cease to do so should you want to progress more slowly. However, I will also note that my opinion of you will not change regardless of the speed or lack thereof and I hope yours of me would not either."

A beat passes.

"To clarify, I have desired to have sexual intercourse with you for some time now and continue to desire to."

they're so stupid (fond)

Date: 2025-02-06 04:34 am (UTC)
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It is certainly not some fling with Spock. For Spock, it is also not some fling with Jim. Spock has found is very bad at flings and did not desire one with Jim in the first place.

He is patient as Jim processes, as he comes to his decision.

His lips curve up slightly at the corners. Just a little. "I believe you will."

Then he unceremoniously picks Jim directly off the floor, hoists him over his shoulder, carts him over to one of the beds, and practically tosses him onto it. "You are overdressed."

A pointed statement as Spock starts to remove his own layers, still standing so as to get the robes off properly.

they're REALLY good lmao

Date: 2025-02-06 05:38 am (UTC)
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Spock has very little evidence of Jim's habits and mannerisms sexually as he has always ensured there was no overlap, and to say he is briefly startled by the intensity with which Jim responds to what Spock had found most practical would be correct.

That is not to say he dislikes it, however, as he briefly feels as though his mouth has gone dry from the sound of Jim moaning in his ear. Spock watches him the entire time as he undresses, gaze dark and hungry, and he's almost fully undressed by the time Jim tries to get him onto the bed and closer to him already: all he has left are his pants and underwear, and for once in his life Spock has not taken the time to fold any of it, just tossed it over the back of his desk chair.

Spock shifts close enough for Jim to get his hands on him, but he busies him instead with straddling his thighs and kissing him, harder than before, desperate and heated with a low groan against his mouth before he starts dragging his attentions lower, teeth catching briefly at his throat, his collarbone—

—his eyes flick up to look at his face, one eyebrow arched slightly, as he presses a kiss to the center of his chest in the same moment that one of his hands slides up the length of Jim's inner thigh.

Date: 2025-02-13 05:20 am (UTC)
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Jim's hands practically feel as though they burn his skin for the body heat difference and Spock swallows hard. He has never been this easily affected with any of his previous human partners, but perhaps it is the affection making it that much more intense.

Perhaps it is also the desperation Jim already showcases with each thing Spock does; he has also never felt this wanted before and he desperately, desperately craves more of it.

Spock has at least been somewhat sexually adventurous, though with less overall partners than Jim may have had. He is aware of the usage of and requirement for lubricant with humans for certain aspects, though Vulcans produce enough of their own, generally speaking. Spock considers mentioning so, as he is aware that the preparation for anal sex is similar both between species and sexes, but curiosity about the rest of Jim's comment wins out and he slides just far enough away to get to said foot locker and pop it open, arching an eyebrow slightly as he skates a glance over everything inside before he grabs the bottle of lubricant and returns to his own bed and Jim himself.

He sets the bottle on the bed and slides up Jim's body again to press a kiss to his mouth; as he does he shoves his pants and underwear the rest of the way down his hips and gets them off his legs, leaving them in similar states of undress.

Similar states of hardness too, though their anatomy does have certain differences, namely the fact that Spock's arousal has slipped free of its normal sheathed housing and that said sheath has leaked enough slick that not only is his cock coated, his inner thighs are dripping obscenely.

He has never been this aroused in his life, he realizes, though he does not say as much because he's too busy pinning Jim to the bed with his own body to grind their hips together, giving them both slippery friction that drags a groan from low in his chest.

Date: 2025-02-17 06:00 am (UTC)
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Now that they are urged together like this, it becomes easier to use his hands for other things but more difficult to keep his thoughts in order. As Jim arches and rocks up against him Spock meets him movement for movement, one hand splayed on the sheets as the other slides down Jim's arm, to his wrist, fingertips tracing over his knuckles.

The sound he lets out into Jim's mouth is frankly obscene and he has to take a moment to catch his breath, eyes dark from how blown his pupils are as he looks down at him, processing what Jim said to him. Then his head pops up a little bit like a meerkat or something and he says—

"—If you desire to have sexual intercourse while seated in the Captain's chair, we will be required to find the means and time to do so while we are still cadets as it is unlikely we will be able to do so once we are stationed on a ship. The suggestion of making use of the simulated bridge is prudent." He is already going through some calculations in his head, and his access to areas of the academy—the library is simple, for example.

Each word is throaty despite their matter-of-fact nature and he continues on to nod, kissing him eagerly before he speaks again. "I have never desired anyone as much as I do you, and it has been this way from the moment I realized I did so at all."

Finally, finally, he stops fondling Jim's hand to slide his between them, long fingers curling around both of their cocks at once to stroke them together. "I have dreamed of you when I took time to sleep," he adds, sounding almost thoughtful. "It does not compare to the reality."

Date: 2025-02-18 12:17 am (UTC)
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While Spock does not grin in return, the slight tip of his head is as good as doing so, for him, the way his mouth briefly ticks up at one corner even as they kiss.

He keeps his hand on them, periodically looking down at the sight and swallowing hard from just how evocative—he needs to focus.

"I am granted access to areas of the campus after hours as my sleep schedule is much shorter than other species and I require more productive time." A beat passes and he shifts the angle of his wrist just enough to let Jim fuck into the grasp of his hand, tipping his head down to murmur into his ear.

"There is a particular one in which we are having sexual intercourse while seated in the Captain's chair." Alright, maybe his tone is a little wry to make up for the fact that he had briefly pretended he was very much planning to do Jim a favor with the setup when he has also had it on his mind and also worded it exactly the same as he did just a moment ago. "However, I have found them all markedly enjoyable. I would find it gratifying to be able to show you them over time."

Date: 2025-02-18 04:06 am (UTC)
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"Yes," Spock says, but it is unclear to which part, whether he means yes he is a goddamn tease, yes he wants that just as bad, or both. He gives them both a squeeze, groaning against Jim's throat, and catches the lobe of his ear with his teeth before continuing. "Shall I elucidate? Inform you that I desire to settle on your lap, to feel you inside me, to let you fuck me," with a slight emphasis on the fuck, purposeful and knowing, "on the bridge in the chair you belong in?"

A lot to say, perhaps, but all the same it does not seem as though he is playing it up: unbridled desire, certainly, but he means every word of it.

Jim squirming beneath him gets Spock shifting, kissing along his neck, under his ear, along his jaw, back to his mouth, granting him a kiss and then breathing out his next words against his lips.

"Jim," with a low thrum to his voice, thick and heated, "tell me what you want tonight. We will have opportunity to explore the rest on other occasions."

Because he does want to have Jim for good. For always, for real, for him.

Date: 2025-02-18 05:52 am (UTC)
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Spock is not immune to fears and anxieties. He is terrified that Jim will realize that Spock is not actually worth it, that he will find Spock neither Vulcan nor Human enough, that he will again be left alone in the liminal space he occupies.

He loves Jim, though. He loves Jim in ways he has found impossible to excise and while the risk is there, Jim is worth it.

Jim is also, at current, drawing a low, wanting sound out of Spock with words alone. He cannot tell which he wants more, the physical connection of sex or the emotional connection afterward. But he is being granted both and will not waste the opportunity.

Spock nods, free hand roaming to touch Jim wherever he can reach. There is a sense of adoration he does not even try to hide; he does at length shift though, sitting up just enough to gather himself. He does not, as it happens, reach for the bottle of lube. Instead he drags his hand through his dripping slick to coat his fingers so that he can hook his arm under Jim's knee to lift his leg and guide him to the best position for Spock to start to work a finger into him: there is an air of confidence at least to the way he does it, in just how wet he made sure his hand was before even trying.

"Conveniently, I am able to provide both of those requests."

His tone has shifted, a little more rough at the edges, almost ragged with want. Another kiss to his mouth as Spock acclimates him to the sensation with the same care he would exercise had he not been reasonably certain that Jim is going to want more and potentially demand it soon enough.

His teeth catch Jim's lower lip and he gives a gentle tug—gentle at the moment, at least.

"I have dreamed of this as well," is murmured against his mouth. Jim beneath him, Jim practically begging for him. It feels heady.

Date: 2025-02-22 06:12 am (UTC)
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Jim Kirk is always beautiful. But it strikes differently like this when Spock can have him as he has wanted to for months now. Can drag slow, indulgent touch along the length of the leg he cradles in the crook of his elbow even as he presses another finger in along with the first, speeding up to match the addition, spreading them as he listens to Jim speaking, feels the shape of the words against his mouth.

"I did not bring any partners to our shared room," he murmurs back, "I was attempting to distract myself from thinking about my desires for you and I would have been even more unsuccessful in that had I been surrounded by reminders of you."

The room, full of Jim's things and memories of their time spent together.

"As such, you are the first person I have been physically intimate with in this bed."

Spock shifts, leaning over Jim and practically bending him in half so that he can finger him open more thoroughly, head turning so he can press slow, open-mouthed kisses along the line of his jaw.

"I was jealous," he admits, fingers curling experimentally on a slightly rougher thrust, "every time I saw you with anyone else. I wanted to be with you, to be who you looked at, who you wanted."

Date: 2025-02-23 06:06 am (UTC)
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"—an attempt at self-distraction," Spock finishes Jim's thought for him, because he knows. It is clear that is what it was to both of them even without the verbal confirmation.

Every single one of Jim's reactions feels a little bit like a gift, a long-delayed gratification. The sound of his voice, his cries, the way he twitches without so much as a brush of Spock's fingers, are all driving Spock to distraction.

"I was unaware," he manages at length, purposely pressing both fingers deep, then curving them pointedly as he draws them back, "that you thought I was only attracted to females. Had I the option to clarify, perhaps we would have done this sooner." There is no reprimand, just a statement. An observation punctuated by the way Spock presses a kiss to the junction of Jim's shoulder and neck, then bites down with the full intention to leave a lasting mark.

He can hear Jim's voice in every bit of his mind, filling his ears, and he takes a shuddering breath into the skin, only releasing from the bite as he shifts further, urges a kiss to his mouth too, and then manages to mumble against his mouth. "Tell me when you are ready for me," he says, not because he thinks more time is necessary but because he wants to hear the exact words fall from Jim's beautifully pleading mouth.

Date: 2025-02-23 11:32 pm (UTC)
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"I am unable to provide sexual intercourse yesterday." A beat passes and he adds, roughly, "I am aware that is a colloquialism."

And then, for a moment, Spock does not speak. It remains clear he keeps focused, pays attention, that he hears what Jim has to say: he nods jerkily on a groan drawn out by the bite to his lip, kissing him hungrily another moment as he shifts them both, as he rests back slightly on his knees and drags jim closer against him, one leg still over his arm and the other able to stretch out past Spock's body.

There is a brief span of seconds where Spock just looks down at him, something indescribable in his eyes despite how fully blown his pupils are: he is, in fact, exhibiting The Gaze in real time, distracted and flustered by how much he loves Jim Kirk.

Jim is still babbling the entire while though, and Spock manages to shake himself out of it with another nod, taking a ragged breath before carefully positioning himself, keeping them both steady, and carefully rocking his hips forward—slow, but not agonizingly so because he is struggling to keep hold of the thin thread of self-control he has remaining.

Date: 2025-02-24 01:03 am (UTC)
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The moment is perfect. Or, well, Jim is perfect, and Spock is being allowed to bask in that, to watch Jim's reactions, to blink both sets of eyelids in order to make sure his vision stays completely clear while he commits the sight of Jim beneath him, arching toward him, dragging him closer, and what could Spock possibly do but relent?

He lets himself drop forward, landing on his forearm to keep from crushing Jim with his weight, and puts himself well within reach as he keeps on with his slow movement, pausing briefly once he bottoms out, giving them both a moment to relax and keep going without cracking immediately—Spock in particular needs to breathe a moment, even himself out, the tight heat of Jim around him overwhelming to say the least.

He murmurs soothingly by Jim's ear, though he does not attempt to shush him. The volume is not an issue, but Spock cannot help but allow himself the affections he has been holding in all this time, has been clawing across shattered glass to keep in his mouth, in his throat, in his chest.

He will do so until Jim no longer exudes such surprise that someone could feel such a way for him. He mouths kisses along the line of Jim's jaw, voice low and throaty. There comes a point where he cannot help but murmur in Golic instinctively, and it is around that point where he gives up on taking a second to breathe and draws his hips back slowly only to snap them forward again so hard that Jim's back slides across the bed slightly, a little closer to the edge of the pillow. His voice chokes mid-word, overwhelmed, and he switches to supporting himself on one hand while the other cradles Jim's jaw so he can keep watching his face as he continues, pace not quite punishing but still hard and fast, a culmination of both eagerness and desiring to, illogically, 'make up for lost time.'

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